Just like 1,2,3....

As a child i began to count on my fingers, because it was the only thing children were able to really get into without being bored at the age of 2 -3. But when i got sick it was that time where i didn't count anymore and i just wanted my mom to take care of me and heal me in any way possible.

I never really thought about it until now, but being sick humbles you and brings you to this state of mind where you just have to view everything and say to yourself:

"God if it wasn't for your grace and mercy, these feelings and emotions envoked by this sickness might appear much worse."

Sickness is something that a lot of people take for granted....yeah i said for granted. Have you ever wanted to go to some event or occasion at the last moment but in the back of your mind you knew or you just didn't want to go in the first place, then all of a sudden your sick...Hello?... You don't have to necessarily be physically sick to be "sick" but you can be mentally, spiritually or emotionally sick. These three other aspects of "sick" i've mentioned are just the litte things that evolve and intertwine with each other. Mentally sick can be a known disease or that clout the resounds in your mind as a constant reminder of either failure or what if....i hate the what ifs, because they bring so many other thoughts along with them causing an arousal of other thoughts to float about in your mind. These failures and what ifs are what tie into Emotional sickness, now that brings forth the baggage of the result of going into that murky trail of thought and then you drag yourself into spiritual sickness, meaning you feel that God can't and won't change the circumstances because your in too deep.

Define "In too Deep" in God's eyes?

In too deep is just doubts and emotions coaxing you to put God in a rock and hard place. This is the type of situation where God can take you out of, but yet you don't want get out of it just as yet yourself. So "in too deep" is that prayer you pray when you have a moment of clarity and you look up to the sky and say words of sincerity. Its funny when He removes you out that situation you're like a blind man babbling nonsense because you have yet to accept you have no physical vision...its time to open up your senses and depend on something greater that your finite characteristics. God is there, willing, open, and availible but just like 1,2,3...that situation can become a thing of the past only if and only if you let Him make it the past.

Sickness, whether temporary or till the chapters of time close, makes us see that our days and our voices are temporary, if it wasn't for His mercy or His grace i can gurantee you this world we live in today would be sheer disgust in everyones' eyes, there is but so much the human mind can take. So think of that head cold or those allergies or whatever ailment you have as a chance to seriously reflect on whatever emotions could have ran through your body if you were exposed to a even greater ailment, the destruction of the soul itself.


"Has not my hand made all these things, and so came into being? declares the Lord. 'This is the one I esteem he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." Isaiah 66:2

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:30&31

Leave it to God, because there is no depth that He can't reach to get to you.

signing off

BRIII