Heart to Heart

God, forgive me for the wrong i've done. Forgive me for the iniquities and infirmities that hold me back from true worship. God there are tears that want to leave my eyes but God, Your grace is sufficient. Your grace is here to comfort and open my eyes to the greater vision you have ahead. Lord you said in your word you're a jealous God and that you will not have someone being put before you. God, I messed up. I messed up my life and my walk with you, i went my own way thinking that i'd get somewhere and here i am back to square one where there is no improvement and lack of self....Lord i'm not myself. Lord I haven't been myself in so long. God renew in me joy, wash my heart of hurt and pain. Wash my thoughts of pain, wash my feet from walking into further distractions. God guard my heart and thoughts i pray.

Its in Jesus Name, Amen.

poverty in bags

im carrying bags
bags that carry written documents on paper
black ink white bodies carrying the written book of judgement
names of the holy dwelling we receive called heaven thats is only if the righteous accept the plans of the father
Father forgive the bodies that dwell in the trees
weve been uprooted from your dominion of great things
cut down into the matter where we may store greatness by letting them reap from our mistakes
bring us to nothingness
let the spindles of our hair be the veins of newer knowledge
God grant us the look
the vision to see what we do not see
live how we ought to live
for poverty awaits with bags
and i carry them
as a willful punishment
locs of dust
tattered rags of the unknown
foot embalmed in titanium
skin ash white
sleep called them to thier fate.

b.poetic

God what have i done with my time?

"Remember how short my time is; For what futility have You created all the children of men? Psalm 89:47

I'm thinking right now and all i can think of is time. Where has it gone? What has been done with it? Who has it been spent with? When did it come and go? and lastly Why is it so short?
God what have I done with my time? I know i've wasted it on meaningless things and meaningless desires. Everything that has crossed my path has been without meaning or has had meaning and yet i looked passed it because the picture was too great to realize to see. It has been a crazy experience for me.

God, I acknowledge You first and foremost for my very existance, the very breath in my lungs for without You i would not be or even be a preconceived thought. God there are so many things going on in this life that you've given me time to seriously look at the greater picture. God help me to see the bigger picture. Help my eyes to open and see a greater vision, open my eyes up from darkness and allow me to see. God, it is You who is the holder and keeper of my time, God open me up in my inmost parts and let me see the way and will that you have drawn up for this time. God, Forgive me of my inner iniquities and infirmities. I'm not perfect God but You require perfection of me. You require big and better things of me. You only ask for me to willingly do what You ask. God provide in me a stronger will for life and for Your will. I'm not strong enough to go on into this life empty handed and hollow hearted. God restore in me a joy, peace and love in abundance. God, it is said in your word "It is good for me that i have been afflicted, That i may learn your statutes"...it is good that i learn from these experiences called life but it is even better when i arise out of these experiences a different person. Let me be that light, that different person, that person that You've made me to be. Let my transgressions be before your throne, Lord God, do not look past them but acknowledge my faults and my hunger pains for Your words. Lord, reveal to me who i need to become in order to understand my circumstances. Lord open me up and pour out the contents of my inmost parts. Lord fill me with something new to reflect on. Something to savor upon so that I won't go far from Your will. David said ' I will praise you with my whole heart; Before the gods I will sing praises to You.' Let my song be made anew. Lord, remove the hurt and anger that i harbor in me. Lord, remove those feelings of doubt, guilt, shame, heart ache, pain, suffering, lack of zeal and hunger for life, remove from me the thoughts that never should have been implanted into my being. Open the doors for the maintenance to be done in my soul. God restore me. Search me, and know my thoughts, see if there be any wicked ways in me and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Show me to love again. God Bless all whom i have love and deep sincerity towards. Bless them in double portions in their life as well as my own. Help me to forgive those who hate me and love me. Help me to forgive those who correct me when i'm wrong. God Help me to realize where my time rests. Its in Jesus' Name where one day in his courts is better than thousands else where. Amen.

"Though i walk int he midst of trouble, you will revive me; You will stretch out Your hand Against the wrath of my enemies, And Your right hand will save me."

Psalm 138:7

Song of the soul...and enlightenment

Hezekiah Walker-Grateful





I am grateful for the things that You have doneI am grateful for the victories we've wonI could go on and on about your worksBecause I'm grateful, grateful so grateful just to praise You LordFlowing from my heart are the issues of my heart, is gratefulness(Repeat)





Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulGrateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulGrateful, grateful, grateful


Gratefulness is flowing from my heart(9x)





Flowing from my heart
Are the issues of my heart,is gratefulness

..........................

God puts people into your life for an impact to be made and impression to be left, but a lot of us don't see some of these people as impacts or impressions because we get caught up. We get caught up in friendships, relationships, marriages, and everything even everyone tells us things that we should do things to change certain outcomes and certain circumstances, but we fail to realize the initial purpose God has placed them on our path. Life is a walk, that is to be nurtured first with the acceptance of God's will and secondly with acknowledgement and reverence of God's will.

It states in Psalm 16:11

You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Along this path God has given us choices. But when we get caught up and reflect on our decisions do we remember God's will. Half of the burdens we've experienced could have been avoided if we chose God's will...just by simply asking. But Glory be to God. God is not a traditional god, but a god of new route and new life.

John 10:10

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

God is so good, and this why i'm grateful. For the little blessings as well as the big.

1 Peter 4:11

"If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen."

BRIII.

His work is never done.

Lord, I thank you for this opportune time that you have provided me a mission in which I must complete due to Your will. Lord if it wasn't for Your unfailing love i dont know where id be or where id go when i seek true refuge. God i acknowledge You for being the strength in the midst of the storm, i acknowledge You as a greater weight in the fiber of my bones. For in your word you asked a prophet "Son of man, can these bones live?" and he responded "O Sovereign Lord, you alone know." God you alone know my todays and tomorrows. You alone know my years to come. and it is only by your grace and mercy that i see these days. Lord forgive me for my trespasses and mine iniquities and infirmities. Transform and renew the right spirit in me. with this task you've placed in my hands God you alone know what is to come and to pass. God with your will and might may i do all that you've asked of me. Its in Jesus name where things spring forth greater hope. Amen.

the 17th chapter of John, Jesus prays for Three things which tie into out daily walk. but ive noticed 2 significant things that a lot of us tend to do, we pray for ourselves more so than anyone else or we tend to pray for everyone else more so than ourselves. But if you notice Jesus prays for three things...Himself, those that will carry on His work and finally those that will accept the benefits of His work as their own...this is a simple but the most effective plan.

so the lesson is:
pray 4 urself.
"Father, the time has come. Glorify your Son, that your Son may glorify you....i have brought glory on earth by completing the work that you gave me to do"-John 17:1-4

pray for the people to carry on His work(church, pastor, etc.)
"Now they know that everything you have given comes from you... Holy Father, protect them by the power of your name--the name you gave me--so that they may be one as we are one" John 17: 7 & 11b.

pray for those that will come to accept( the calling, new believers, etc)
"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message,...I in them you in me. May the be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you loved me." John 17: 20 & 23

Lord i pray for myself your word made it clear through your example through Christ. Let the fruits of my life testify along with you. i pray for the people who you've chosen before time began to do your work. let us do your work to our full potential. and lastly i pray for those that come to accept your message. i pray that their hearts may not be hardened nor troubled when the find refuge in you...some trust in men others trust in chariots but we will trust in the Lord our God....Lord i pray for caleb n all whom you opened my mind to Let your words be my words...its in Jesus name where i let Him have his way. Amen.

BRIII

I think therefore I am...nothing.

"Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many of you were influential; not many of you were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of this world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of this world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and despised things--and the things that are, so that no one may boast before him." - 1 Corinthians 1: 26-29

This is the first time in a while since i've read my bible and this is the first thing i came across. today i found out three things that made me numb yet nonchalant. my uncle's vision is at 10% in both of his eyes, my aunt is stressed and now is losing her hair, and lastly my cousin is going through a period of depression due to the fact that she can't speak to her mom about anything.

I Praise you God for who you are sincerely, despite the words and emotions that may cause me to go these routes in life, my family members go through these things but God your using me to shed a light upon people of your goodness.

God calls us to recognize something within ourselves...we are dust. it speaks in the book of Ecclesiastes 3:20" All go to the same place; all come from the dust, and to the dust all return." it was God in the book of Genesis who "breathed into his nostrils the breath of life". we must come to terms that if it wasnt for God our existence would be null and void.

these verses are a testimony, God removed us out of our circumstances, out of our lifestyles, out of those troublesome ways to help us to realize we need not be proud or want to be exalted for our mistakes, or our present circumstances...there is no reason to boast God covers us with His love. His love for us that endures forever gives us a reason to boast about Him to the people. I am not ashamed to say God is good. I am not ashamed to say i pray and go to church. i am not ashamed of God. it's His love that pushes me forward.

"Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away." -1 Corinthians 13:8

"Hatred stirs up dissension but love covers all sins"-Proverbs 10:12

God, i thank You for this time of reflection. I thank you for everything you've done in my life to teach me about life itself, its meanings teachings and values. God i just pray that all may recognize who You are. God forgive me of all my transgressions and iniquities, infirmities alike. i realize that without You i have no reason to be proud what am i to gain with the pride of life? Let the angels of heaven exalt you for you alone are worthy of my Praise. Jesus let you light hibernate within us. Its in Jesus name where all things are made whole.Amen

BRIII

God to you do i submit myself

"The sacrificed of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart-these O God you will not despise." Psalms 51:17

God i come before your throne of grace and mercy submitting a broken spirit, i come to you in humble non-self righteous manner. God there is hurt and regret on the crevices of my heart. Lord forgive me for i've done wrong in your sight, You do not deserve my wicked acts, you do not deserve my worthless Praise, You dont deserve to forgive me but is your grace that covers me daily despite my words, ways and actions. God renew in me a clean heart daily, refresh the tears in my eyes, renew the joy in .my heart, create in me a content spirit. as David said..."Make me hear joy and gladness, that the bones You have broken may rejoice." Lord you stated in your word in the book of Hebrews the fourth chapter the twelveth and thirteenth verse "For the word of God is living and powerful, and shaper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit,band of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of thoughts and intents of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account." God i choose not to hide my shame. Hiding is lack of confidence and lack of acknowledgment. God I've done wrong in your sight. i can only ask that you forgive me for the wrongs God. Help me to forgive those who do wrong by me also. Lord hear my plea....hear my words its in Jesus Nalme where the manifestation of his glory reigns at the right
hand of God the Father's throne. Amen.

BRIII

don't be troubled

"Owe no one anything except to love one another, for he who loves another has fulfilled the law"- Romans 13:8

do you know how hard it is to love one another when you are hurt? do you know how hard it is to love one another when they are dying? do you know how hard it is to love one another when you feel that love can't coexist with the emotions of dislike or even hatred for your enemy or kin? lets face it, it is very hard.

Do you know how hard it was and is to love a sinner? think about it from God's perspective...to love someone who despite how much good they can do has the sin nature in them.

love is very powerful. it says in Proverbs 10:12 "Hatred stirs up dissension but love covers all sins". it was God's love that overcame his hatred for our nature. God loves us but he hates whats in us, if only we submit to His will, His love will truly flow through us. thats what forgiveness is, the power to overcome with love, its that grace the covers us, peace that surrounds us , and love that fills us.

God i ask for a new seed to be planted in us. A seed entailed with the finest features of what love brings. I pray that we may stand firm and hold steadfast to your love...the innumerable measure, the willing flow of water that fills all spaces of the heart and soul overpowering the mind's clout. God help us to change our ways. Its in Jesus name where all things are made possible. Amen

signing off b4 i clock into work

BRIII

be thankful

"Do not let this book of the law depart from your mouth meditate on it day and night so that you will be successful in all that you do"- Joshua 1:8

somes your only form of sanity is cursing yelling and doing all the above but im thankful because all these forms of vulgarity dont have to leave my lips..some times songs just replace what i would initially say. God replaces certain emotions that we would normally feel with peace or a sense of self...i was reading a book and this woman was in a strong marriage and it seemed pic perfect until her husband told her he was gay. now you would think a woman would freak out but she kept her cool and her poise...Sometimes God's word is the only thing that can keep you from going crazy.

at work signing off

BRIII

For every mountain climbed...I give You Praise

Have you ever looked at the muscles of a rock climber and actually views them in action? have you ever seen them land their foot a little wrong and they slip but with all the physical strength as well as will power they pull themselves to the next level until they have reached their goal?

God in the midst of this scenario is our physical strength. He is that will power that encourages us to go above and beyond that particular situation that we think has paralyzed us. That situation could be that boyfriend, that girlfriend, that friendship, that job, that attitude, your parents, that school, that marriage problem, that marriage itself, those church folk, alot of things but in spite of it all we have a cheerleader that practically declares our victory against our vices.

It states in Romans 11 verse 29:
"...for God's gifts and his call are irrevocable"

so take these gifts that he has given you to conquer your vices and claim your victory. Don't let anyone or anything take you away from God. Don't be that rock climber who settles for less than the success of overcoming that mountain. The mountain is just another obstacle that you've come against don't let it rule your life. For it speaks in Matthew the seventeenth chapter: "He replied, 'Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith of a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

so what is impossible through faith? a woman had come to Jesus about her child who was demon possessed and it was a smart response against her vice of doubt in which God granted her request of healing. " The woman came and knelt beform him. 'Lord, help me!' she said. He replied,' It is not right to take the children's bread and toss it to their dogs.' Yes, Lord,' she said, 'but eveb the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the master's table."-Matthew 15:25-27

even in the most complicated situations God can change the circumstances...but you have to have the will and the strength to want to move on in faith. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. so just like that rock climber losing balance we have to be sure about our next step and certain we will make it.


"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."- Romans 15:13

signing off

BRIII

Prayer Intercession

God, You are the maker of heaven and earth, the founder of all that is and was. You are the King who rules supreme in the heart, You know the contents thereof. You are the discerner of situations at hand and You give out fair judgement even though sometimes we don't understand but God I praise you because it is with these judgements that we are kept firm and we are kept solid. It is with this foundation that we don't complain because all we can say at the end of the day Lord is yes and amen. God you are the ruler of my hearts' content and i pray that you may remove the cobwebs of doubt, the dust of lust, the trails of hate, the scent of wickedness. I pray that you may restore my heart's content to your appeal. God renew in me a clean heart, and create in me a steadfast spirit(Ps. 51.10) Do not cast me away from your presence ,Oh God. Without You I am nothing, with you I overcome the world and the contents thereof. God I come to you asking and pleading for forgiveness. Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong,God you are strong for Your strength is you grace and your mercy you allow daily even though we don't deserve it God. You plead the sinner's case because of the blood. Your son's blood which was shed on Calvary. Your grace is sufficient and your strength is made perfect through our weaknesses. God there are somethings that you are willing to hear and are willing to pardon only if we confess our sins you are faithful and just to forgive us our sins through Christ Jesus. So Lord i confess my wrongs, my fornication, my adulterous behavior, my foul language, my attitude, everything that is not of your Spirit. I pray that i may be forgiven and pardoned for my wrongs. God help me to get close to you and allowing myself to let go of what is negative and what im fearful of. God I claim my blessings before your throne. I claim all that is rightfully mine. God but there's more. God i come petitioning on behalf of a few friends of mine as well as those that i love dearly. God i lift up before you Lameek, I pray that you may bless all that he does Lord. Bless his head as he lays to sleep, bless the fibers of his being that you've allowed life into Lord God. God I pray that you may bless his family Lord God, give his mother grace and mercy to follow her all the days through Lord. God breathe a breath of inspiration to be in the midst of his sisters and brother. God I pray that you may bless his grandmother, Ruby Logan Lord God. I pray a new song may be upon her heart and joy may be restored in her smile. Lord I pray that you may speak to his heart in ways i cannot. Speak volumes of refreshing sound. Speak an oasis into his life. God I pray that you may show him a great amount of love that even i can't compare to. God you are Love. Love in the very essense of the word. Love is patient, it is kind, it does not envy nor does it boast it is not proud. God Love is you. i lift up Antonio Lord God, i pray that his family is being restored and that his relationships with friends and or foes are being restored Lord. Restore his innocence and his identity in You Lord. I pray that you may bless his mom in spite of her condition, I pray that you may draw a smile to come out the wellsprings of spirit. Let her commit to you her hearts' desires and her truest heart to heart Lord. Lord bless his brother and sister and inspire them with words of new life. Lord Give Antonio a reason to look unto the new day. Carina Lord, she is in distress and she is in dier need of you. Lord i lift her up because this spirit of depression is consumming her Lord I rebuke that spirit of depression and doubt and hurt weighing down. Lord renew in her a spirit of life Lord. Restore the joy to her and her sister Lord. I lift Misha before you Lord it is you who lifts up things that fall down. For Isaiah stated in your word :Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. (Isaiah 55) You invite us with no cost Lord. You give an opportunity that simply can't be refused. God I call to you to restore the joy and freely give what is asked. All of my help commeth from the Lord. Lord bring forth the answer to what is desired by her will. You are the easer of the mind. The renewer of our faith and daily you give us a reason to be appreciative and thankful of what is. God you are...wonderful. Lord restore the Joy to Jaleesa and Delroy Lord. Even though their lives may not reflect your will they are still in need of you. You are able to change what seems unchangable. You respond to the hearts that seek you. You serve those who have little to no hope but God it is you. It is you who sustains my faith in you. For if you said it you will do it. Lord I commit my soul and hearts' desires to you. You deserve my praise for what you do and what you will continue to do.

Romans chapter 12 calls us to act accordingly and i bind this prayer in faith and full awareness of your majesty

9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.
10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.
12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.
15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.
16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

God show us the way in which we lack. God it is you.

All to Jesus I surrender; all to him I freely give; I will ever love and trust him, in his presence daily live. I surrender all, I surrender all, all to thee, my blessed Savior, I surrender all. !!!

Its in Jesus NAME all things are made whole and renewed in faith and prayer
Amen.

LOVE is...

a four letter word
a word people take for granted
a verb that your entitled to
a miscommunicated and misconstrued word
a sign that God is
a feeling
an emotion
a phrase
a eternity
a lowly spirit
a humble contrite mind
shared between you an another person
a bond
a greater understanding of wisdom
two souls becoming one in flesh
worship
used in vain
crazy
hectic
harmful
an experience
chosen
unquencable like the thirst of many rivers
longed for
doubted
a big change from being self centered
an eye opener
daily doses of hope
the truth
faith
open
joy
peace that surpasses all understanding
forgotten
never replaced
you
us
him
her
undefined
nevermind
kind
strong
a shoulder to lean on
water that keeps me alive
your first

"Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place."- Revelations 2: 4&5

Love is mercy and compassion but reverence first and foremost, it is a relationship with great structure of foundation and has to be nurtured like a flower of rarity that it is.
God is love... He is...

signing off

BRIII

greatness.

im thankful for what God has brought into my life.
Lameek,family, friends....He is the Great I Am.

"let everything that has breath Praise the Lord. Praise ye the Lord. amen" -Psalm 150:6

signing off

BRIII

Confusion

Have you ever seen a child's face when their confused? They squint their eyes and twist their mouths as if they ate a lemon. Its the cutest thing but at the same time the child also feels as if they won't be able to truly function if they don't quite understand what's being asked of them. For example, when you say a full fledged sentence quickly to them they can only compute to their little brains compacity at the time.

Confusion in adulthood is like feeling stupid or rather useless to the problem at hand. Sometimes our spiritual life goes south and we are drawn into the puddle of confusion and its like God, if you said this why am i feeling this or why am i going through this? You can question God all you want to be honest, but at the end of the day He still is God. He's like the father that keeps his children's thoughts at bay before you realize the reason why years later in adulthood. Why is such an annoying question but if the answer sufficies you'd really understand.

God is not the author of confusion.

Where there's a question there's an answer. Plain and simple. Don't let people or other biases turn you away from a sound answer that God provides on His time which is on time.

"Trust in him at all times O People; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."-
Psalm 62:8

" However, as it is written: 'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him' " - 1 Corinthians 2:9

We may not understand but God knows...When God responds just says yes and amen

signing off

BRIII

Just like 1,2,3....

As a child i began to count on my fingers, because it was the only thing children were able to really get into without being bored at the age of 2 -3. But when i got sick it was that time where i didn't count anymore and i just wanted my mom to take care of me and heal me in any way possible.

I never really thought about it until now, but being sick humbles you and brings you to this state of mind where you just have to view everything and say to yourself:

"God if it wasn't for your grace and mercy, these feelings and emotions envoked by this sickness might appear much worse."

Sickness is something that a lot of people take for granted....yeah i said for granted. Have you ever wanted to go to some event or occasion at the last moment but in the back of your mind you knew or you just didn't want to go in the first place, then all of a sudden your sick...Hello?... You don't have to necessarily be physically sick to be "sick" but you can be mentally, spiritually or emotionally sick. These three other aspects of "sick" i've mentioned are just the litte things that evolve and intertwine with each other. Mentally sick can be a known disease or that clout the resounds in your mind as a constant reminder of either failure or what if....i hate the what ifs, because they bring so many other thoughts along with them causing an arousal of other thoughts to float about in your mind. These failures and what ifs are what tie into Emotional sickness, now that brings forth the baggage of the result of going into that murky trail of thought and then you drag yourself into spiritual sickness, meaning you feel that God can't and won't change the circumstances because your in too deep.

Define "In too Deep" in God's eyes?

In too deep is just doubts and emotions coaxing you to put God in a rock and hard place. This is the type of situation where God can take you out of, but yet you don't want get out of it just as yet yourself. So "in too deep" is that prayer you pray when you have a moment of clarity and you look up to the sky and say words of sincerity. Its funny when He removes you out that situation you're like a blind man babbling nonsense because you have yet to accept you have no physical vision...its time to open up your senses and depend on something greater that your finite characteristics. God is there, willing, open, and availible but just like 1,2,3...that situation can become a thing of the past only if and only if you let Him make it the past.

Sickness, whether temporary or till the chapters of time close, makes us see that our days and our voices are temporary, if it wasn't for His mercy or His grace i can gurantee you this world we live in today would be sheer disgust in everyones' eyes, there is but so much the human mind can take. So think of that head cold or those allergies or whatever ailment you have as a chance to seriously reflect on whatever emotions could have ran through your body if you were exposed to a even greater ailment, the destruction of the soul itself.


"Has not my hand made all these things, and so came into being? declares the Lord. 'This is the one I esteem he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." Isaiah 66:2

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:30&31

Leave it to God, because there is no depth that He can't reach to get to you.

signing off

BRIII

Finished with a piece of mind

i finished the semester with a clear mind Thank You Jesus!
Amen

dependent

well good morning, there is something i realized that i constantly do, depend on my ipod. now its solmething i use to get my day started but ive come to realize that i begin to ignore the surroundings and the people around me. im more secluded from the world and everything in it. i demolish all contact with the people around me. i feel bad sometimes all the conversation that could ever take place is made obsolete due to the lack of interaction. i think since my ipod disappeared, this time is to show me what im lacking as a child of God first and foremost...so my prayer is going to be simple and sweet...search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxieties...and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me into the way of everlasting. -Psalm 139.

signing off.

BRIII

i will trust in you, let the weak say i am strong

a quick synopsis on the chapter of Ezekiel 37... God is speaking to Ezekiel asking him a question, can these bones live? and he replies to God only God himself can know. God commands Ezekiel to prophecy over the dry bones twice for two different aspects, for the physical and for the breath. later on in the chapter, God goes to speak of the new covenant that he will create with these people and that his sanctuary would dwell among these people.

this comes to pass, and God completes this in Matthew the twenty-seventh chapter when Jesus is on the cross and he gives up his Spirit. the curtain of the temple is torn, the tombs break open and the holy people that died were raised to life they went into the holy city and appeared to many people...the centurion and those that were with him even exclaimed that Jesus is the Son of God.

now as i read this, i am utterly happy that this connects. We were the dry bones...meaning we were dead it wasn't until God commanded that we were spoken upon, it wasn't until the flesh was built upon these very bones that we were made whole on the physical sense. David speaks in Psalm 139 in verse 15 & 16... "my frame was not hidden from you when i was made in a secret place. when i was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

now for ths spiritual sense, Jesus speaks to his disciples in John 20 verse 22..." and with that he breathed on them and said, 'Receive the Holy Spirit'."...it also is recognized in Genesis 2 verse 7..." the Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."

now these are two very important aspects of breath....life and consciousness of what life is. life for the physical in which we intake and conscious for recognition that God is among us and within us. a friend told me that the Holy Spirit is a person...i believe he is a person that embodies us and lets us know that the flesh is weak and that this flesh is a temple in which we must hold steadfast to God, for his strength makes us perfect through weakness.

we were the dry bones and we were provided flesh and lastly provided the breath....but what really seals us is the blood. God spoke to Ezekiel and asked him the question: Son of man can these bones live? Yes they can but not by bread alone...but by the blood of Jesus. Revelation 1 verse 5b..."to him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood."

it wasn't until God spoke upon us that we are made whole in all aspects: spirit & physical making ourselves one with God and His will.

i Praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made...

signing off

BRIII

Can't Sleep so i'll write...

I realize that everything we've ever been taught in life has reinforced the thoughts, values and morals that make us who we are. I was on myspace, and this woman who is four years older then me, i just clicked unto her page to view what she was like. Some people have a tendency to do that to other people's pages to see if they are able to either become friend with that person or just to see what they put out there. Well as i was viewing her page i saw that she was a party girl and i don't knock her for doing as she pleases she's a woman and she can do whatever makes her happy, but as i started scrolling down the page i read her status and it said proud parent. So i went into her photo album to see what she was all about and as i viewed her photos all i could see was this woman or rather girl, because there is a way to carry yourself as a woman, she was practically getting sexed on the dancefloor, drinking liquor like a dude and just taking pictures with her pregnant stomach at these parties as if that was the life to live and the thing to do. Like i said before i don't knock anyone's lifestyle but its like your supposed to be a mother mind you this is what you portray to your social circle and this is who you are as far as any man concerns an easy lay. This is who this woman is, as far as the internet is concerned but its like you have a child and this is who you are? So when a man comes up to her one day and just approaches her due to the image that she has put out there and responds to the actions portrayed by her "motherly character" what can she say then?

Van Hunt said it best "Where is your character?"

I'm only 20 years of age and there are just somethings i won't put on the internet or won't put out there due to the fact that one, its my personal life is at stake and two, i know better not to put something outrageous out in the open to be questioned about. Not to say that im innocent but i know my limitations and my boundaries. My morals and values call me to act better hence the term common sense. There are times when i know better but this is just blatant disrespect of self. Worst case scenario: if i were pregnant and that were me, I have wayyyyyyy more at stake now, i have my life, my child's life, the father of the child's life, the family's life, my education, my position as far as financial needs are concerned, my reputation of self would definitely have to change. I couldn't live knowing that my mother or my father we're taking care of a responsibility that was mine to begin with, when i took the chance in committing myself in the act of sex with someone knowing the full on consequences of this played out scenario.

Like i said there is way to carry yourself as a woman but it all depends what you define as womanhood.

Society supports this behavior in which a person should act reckless and enjoy their youth until they fall into a mistake and this is when they must collect themselves and this is the time in which they should be ridiculed for their behavior, this is the time in which society must point the finger of shame. Why??? It makes nooo sense. What happened to the instruction in which a person needs to survive, what happened to the principle and standards in which a child should be given ahead of time so that if they do fall into this sort of mistake they have full on knowledge knowing they've done wrong and can gradually bounce back into common sense. It seems unfair but hey when society is offering the glitz and glams of what life should be like, its like hey i want that too and i want to do that too. It seems so innocent at first but then you get wrapped up into it and then before you know it your in that position, the point of no return and with that lack of knowledge you really don't know how to bounce back and you really don't know what to do except move with the wave of the crowd.

In the book of Proverbs in the third chapter it says:
My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight;

In the book of Eccleciastes in the fouth chapter it says:
Better a poor but wise youth than an old but foolish king who no longer knows how to take warning.

and lastly one again in the book of Proverbs the sixth chapter it says:
For these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life,


Take that into consideration what image you put out there regardless if its the internet or whatever or wherever you are. First impressions are the lasting ones.

Signing off..

BRIII

soul searching

my soul thirsts for the living God. my lips quench the taste of fulfilling water that flows through the compassionate arms of Jesus. he cries and the tears that flow with salt tell of the tale before the cross. he laughs and i hear the resounding praises of the angels. he looks and i can feel the sword of judgement divide my soul from my spirit, my flesh from my bones. he is silent and i can feel death touch my soul when he doesn't utter a word to me. he speaks and i feel the Holy Spirit consume my flesh allowing me to feel euphoria and the firmness of my feet in his courts. he speaks and i hear the choice being given without harshness, but the decision is beyond my common sense. he listens to my case when i plead guilty of sin and temptation. he loves those that love him and hates those that hate him. he is the way the truth and the life. he is life. he is love. he is judgement. he is peace. he is happiness. he is fulfillment. he is the morning. he is the evening. he is the divine trium God. HE IS THE I AM THAT I AM. but yet my soul thirsts. Lord please let me drink. amen.

from negative to positive

"...therefore, i urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing, to God-- this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will."- Romans 12:1&2

Stop thinking negative...think positive. better said then done. the saying is so cliche and the thoughts now brewing amidst our minds prove the very opposite of the statement being made. Paul writes in the beginning of this verse that we must be a living sacrifice...well what exactly is a living sacrifice? we are alive, i know, on the physical fleshly sense but think from the spiritual sense of sacrifice...its like letting tears fall freely with a sense of regret but at the same time that drowsy euphoria that allows you to feel free; submitting to conviction of the flesh by the Holy Spirit. so think of it this way, this sacrifice as a long overdue submission of self..everyone has that continual void in them and they long for that fulfillment. in the word it speaks about fulfillment...in the book of James it speaks about when we ask and we dont receive, we ask with the wrong motives, that we may spend what we get from our pleasures...so God calls us to submit ourselves first and foremost in order to change what initially was viewed to be negative, our fleshly attitudes and thoughts.

the second thing Paul speaks about is the renewing of our mind so that we may have better judgement. this is where the statement comes into play...stop thinking negative start thinking positive...stop allowing your day to be mastered by that negative thought, act committed to you, by you, with you, and for you. stop allowing the conversations you partake in to take total control of your actions and words. stop letting that man or woman be the clout that you hold in mind when considering commitment ...it speaks in the book of Revelations do not forget your first love. God is the author and finisher of our faith therefore be mindful of what you allow into your thought process...God speaks in the word saying for your thoughts and your ways are not my ways...be considerate of what God will say and do in your life.

life is something we take for granted...but what is our purpose? God's will fulfilled by us allowing ourselves to submit fully and completely to his will...his perfect will.

life and life in abundance

stop thinking negative. think positive.

BRIII

The turning point

it comes a time where you just have to accept a new age.

I turned twenty on tuesday. YaY me!

God is Tooo Good

the greatest love

"And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love"- 1 Corinthians 13:13

there are three key items we need to survive this cold cruel world; faith, hope, and love. when we think of these three words we think of those cards we see in the hallmark store...most of those cards refering to sympathy or the most common of all marriage.

in the book of Hebrews the eleventh chapter faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. so in laymen terms, faith is being concrete in what we say and believe even though many people may not follow that, a great example of this would be our morals and values. We stand in the belief that God exists and no one can really waiver this belief because there are somethings that no one can possibly understand.

hope is refered to in the Bible as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. it enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. He has become the high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek. hope is something that keeps us in place faith is what bursts from this seed implanted in us. like i said before there are somethings that some people dont understand.

love is the greatest gift that can be shown and given to anyone. in the word Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

now lets makes a connection: faith is something we are sure of hope is the anchor that sustains us and love helps us to be humble and lowly in spirit. these are the characteristics of Jesus and the message he put forth. this is the purpose of the relationship we should have with God. we should have faith in when he promises, hope for what God true answer is and love those who may not know what love is.

but the verse states that Love is the greatest of the three. and that is true...Jesus is and was the truest form of love he has continued to be that love even beyond the cross. death made us victorious but by blood alone.

so yes when we see those cards stating what faith,hope and love are...nothing can compare to the greatest of these three...Jesus.

BRIII

The look of love

i just noticed something today as i sat on the j train...the interaction of mothers and their children. now we all know the struggle that mothers go through with carrying a child, the 9 month process and the constant doctor visits for prenatal care, but the craziness they go through with birth all to deliver a healthy child. the excitement and the joy of the pain being gone for a new life to enter this world.

whats the craziest thing to me is after the child has some sort of sense of right and wrong...the mother still has that joy of being able to look at the child with a sense of self...its like a look of amazement...like wow thats my child.

that has to be the most beautiful thing in the world...hopefully one day i'll experience it.

BRIII

the artists foreplay

see keep in mind that im an artist
so i will make you sensitive
see if i was a writer
with the swell of my pen i'd write sonnets to your clitoris
depicting love in its truest form words
and as they merge on the page i'd be declared your freedom writer
speech would be the farthest thing from your mind
for the words that would escape your lips would be written
think about it.
see if i was a painter
my brush would dab your breast ever so gently swirling your features like the ebony earth bringing greenery to the scene
the sunset would be your eyes when they close
after i've created the scene of serenity the masterpiece is complete
think about it.
see if i was a sculptor
i'd mold your torso as my work
grasping your skin like my clay
chiseling the contents of my mind into your being
seeing beauty form out of the depths of thought
think about it.
see if i was a singer
the words swooned through my voicebox
would call to the climax to form in the depths of your tantric state
ohms of heat would rise through your legs causing a earthquake of tears to stream down your cheeks
think about it.
see if i was a dancer
the limbs would fly like phoenix wings
soaring towards the celestial grounds where God can see my praises
think about it.
see i am an artist
and i did make you sensitive
now rest

b.poetic

Give a little love

"...Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."-Mahatma Gandhi

i notice that when you focus on the miniscule things in life we tend to carry this burden where ever and into whatever, this baggage. well today i say leave your baggage behind. how can you move into something with the past leaving behind a distasteful trail for others to see or rather trip over?

mahatma gandhi was a man who promoted peace and non violence and with this movement he spoke proverbs and realistic ideas that everyone who is Christian or of another faith can relate to. this is one quote i can firmly agree with this statement.

when you can forgive you learn to reach inside of yourself and look at the bad and examine it for what it is. Kanye said..."im showing you the good the bad and the ugly Big said get your money aint no tellin they gon' love me." this is to show we are human...now bringing it back to the quote. only the strong can look past the wrongs. only the meek can see what causes these wrongs and only the humble and conscious-minded can forgive.

erykah badu had a song th at referred to the things we carry with us....her message ....let it go.

the word forgive is giving a piece of yourself in exchange for forgetting a burden too heavy to carry

God forgives us and looks past the wrongs and his attribute is strength to carry us. God speaks throught Paul in 1 Corinthians saying that His strength is made perfect through weaknesses. its his grace that is sufficient....his forgiveness is sufficient.

so whatever your holding let it go...it just may be for the better.

BRIII

Good Day

"...this is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."- Psalms 118:24

sometimes i wonder what is so good about a day when people tend to get on your nerves or everything that whole day is just going from bad to worse.

what is the only thing consistant in a day? time. whether we want it to suspend or whether we want it to fleet from our vision, we are experiencing time.

it speaks in the book of Ecclesiasties, the third chapter that there is a time for everything. so back to the original statement...this the day the Lord has made...this is the time the Lord has made. what do you do with your time? do you waste it on careless things? do you focus on the bad things that may or maynot or actually have happened? they say time is a precious thing. so would you rather focus on the bad or the good...

..let us rejoice and be glad in it...

how can we rejoice? i know the answer and its just taking a breath,step and pace at a time. looking at the morning sky, looking at the beautiful sunset. having your eyes flash open from sleep. having breath come in your nostrils and out of your mouth. having limbs that arent confined to a bed. having words the flow from your lips and a voice to speak. having two ears to hear the sounds of life itself.

it speaks in the book of Phillipians to rejoice in the Lord always and again i say rejoice. so now we have something to view as a positive, the time and the feeling that comes along with the time.

this is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it

BRIII

Blessings fall from heaven

"...streams of living water will flow from within him."-John 7:38b

peace is something we all want and need sometimes. i notice the after all the fun and games we're still thirsty. we lose all desires for the things that continually come our way. there are some relationships that leave us unfulfilled. there are some levels of education that we can have, but we seek even greater knowledge than before. is there a void in you that makes you thirst? not that typical thirst where you just want something just to stimulate that level of desire...im talking about that thirst that makes you feel you need to have that answer or you will feel like life itself is not worth living if even the simpliest of questions.

what do you thirst for?
what makes you thirsty?

this simple verse states that the living water will flow from within Him...who is this him? he is Jesus

notice that water is the only liquid known to man that quenches your thirst...im speaking from a physical sense not a spiritual. notice that land is surrounded by water for agriculture to keep us humans alive. notice that water is 70 % of our bodies so where does the other 30 % percent come from? notice that when you swim or if you do swim that your able to stay afloat if you are still and calm...

notice how water flows in many directions it exhorts all types of feelings..anger,love,pain and lastly peace.

so i ask again what do you thirst for?

there are times where my flesh calls for the juice. now juice is good in the physical sense it has many wonderful flavors but notice alot of them are artificial. juice in the spiritual sense is a test. juice comes when your spirit is weak and your flesh is strong. juice are those weird scenarios we say we'll never enter when we first become saved, but here we are months or even years later in these situations we know are permissible but not beneficial.

juice can be that weakness, that lifestyle, that environment, that relationship, that friendship or friendships. juice is a complimentary drink. it satifies for a little while, but water is something that you intake and feel full, alive and refreshed.

what do u thirst for? God is the living water.

BRIII.

Realization: God is too awesome to fathom what He thinks towards us

As i was watching television today i watched this documentary on these two families that went through a horrific tragedy which changed their lives within a 5 week period. Now the case was two females were mistakened to be each other. One had died in this tragedy, so one of the families suffered and the other had survived so a family was joyous. But it turned out the families were greatly connected by one thing that stood true, God still was and is the finisher and author of our destinies. To end their little tragedy, came a great benediction that I can truly say is something we should all take into account

God knows when you've done all you've could and you've exhausted your full potential...He calls you home because your part has been done... Your harvest has been implanted and it is up to the person whom you've shared that seed of growth with, to go forth and yield more fruits for the next seasons that come along. God is the finisher and the author of our faith.

It speaks in the book of Ecclesiasties that everything is meaningless and that we must enjoy our youth while it lasts but we must be mindful to put God first in your youthful stages of life. It speaks in the book of 1 Corinthians that If you have faith of a muster seed that can move mountains and have not love, we are nothing. If you give all that you possess to the poor and you have not love, you gain nothing.

So the questions that arise are: if God is the finisher and the author of our faith, what have you written in the accounts of your life that God has spared you a new day? What is the measures that you take for granted when getting a full fledged opportunity to share with someone the greatest gift of all, God's love? How can you reach your full potential? Where are your fruits?

God is Good...=)

signing off...

BRIII

Just thinking out loud...

Life has a way of dealing you cards that sometimes you just look at and think to yourself that they are messed up or just plain unorganized.

True or False?

Divine intervention

God is so good. its funny when the will of the spirit denies the flesh and the situation that would have come to pass has been removed with an excuse and removed with a even greater obstacle....i didnt want my flesh to sin due to the will of my Father. God allowed this obstacle to come and remove me from the equation of the sin. no one knows the weights and measures of sin because in all honestly when we do sin we feel the heaviness of it in spite of our real thoughts towards our actions...we may have good intentions but when its permissible is it really beneficial is the question?
all the money and pleasures in this world is not worth my soul....God chose for me...amen and amen again

Be careful

it is 12:30 a.m. the day has just begun and already my mind is formulating thoughts about the meaningless things that people do and say. one of the many creadoes i live by is to not make a promise you cant keep. there is no point in going into a marriage based on assumptions that everything will work out for the better...to even fathom a thought of uncertainty, then its in plain view that it wasnt meant to be. meaningless friendships and relationships that make it seem that your consistantly giving a part of yourself and never receiving something; to hold you in a sincere plane of thought where you have a hint of what is to come. friendships that are meaningless are seasonal friendships...they come to teach you something or to better your character build you and shape you into a more concrete person with a sense of self. they are not to be kept for years and years this is what causes a great deal of damage. some people hold on to false hopes and things that make them look really hopeless. relationships that are meaningless mold you to the truth seeking person whom after a while doesn't give a damn about what facades are out there but the matter of the fact is you can see though them and to be blatantly honest you want the reality of life to really strike you. these relationships are just a tool helping you to build all levels of self. i'll edit this later on today...its time for some sleep

Focused on the Love

Today is Good Friday and alot of people think that Easter is all about coming to church that one day of the year to show off their new outfit hence thats what the Easter tradition has been molded and conformed to. But to be blatantly honest, the feast day of Easter was originally a pagan celebration of renewal and rebirth. Celebrated in the early spring, it honored the pagan Saxon goddess Eastre. When the early missionaries converted the Saxons to Christianity, the holiday, since it fell around the same time as the traditional memorial of Christ's resurrection from the dead, was merged with the pagan celebration, and became know as Easter.

It was something celebrated to honor renewal and rebirth, and to be honest thats what God did for us through his son, Jesus Christ. We are renewed by his blood, and we are given new life by his grace.

Easter is not a day to look all holy and santified just because the day has come around, it is a day to really reflect on the Goodness and the favor God has shown upon us.

"As they were eating, Jesus took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to the disciples and said, "Take eat; this is My body." Then He took the cup, and gave all of you. For this is My blodd of the new covenant which is shed for many for the remission of sins"- Matthew 26:26-28

So you see as we reflect on that covenant, we should be thankful just because God is the answer when the question seems so difficult to even fathom. God is the shield when the world wants to disgrace you because of your past wrong doings. Everything that has been done by you whether good or bad is the past once its been accomplished. God is....the essence of Easter. The renewal and rebirth.

signing off.

BRIII

Started something light...

Well i had to write something in order to comment my friends interesting post.

WELL the Student Government in CUNY York College is contaminated. Its rather obvious that they represent George Orwell's Animal Farm, No concrete or firm decisions made. Allegations surfaced and tempers flared. Simone Lamont is the Student Gov't President and i have yet to view how she represents the student body...so therefore im going to heat up her seat as president since she's gotten so comfortable with the fact that she's in that position hence the Town Hall Meeting they are holding on April 8th...They say they get no feedback from the students so im going to bring these students to them and hence they have no excuse but to deliver. this should be interesting....

signing off the 1st blog.

BRIII.luv