Have you ever seen a child's face when their confused? They squint their eyes and twist their mouths as if they ate a lemon. Its the cutest thing but at the same time the child also feels as if they won't be able to truly function if they don't quite understand what's being asked of them. For example, when you say a full fledged sentence quickly to them they can only compute to their little brains compacity at the time.
Confusion in adulthood is like feeling stupid or rather useless to the problem at hand. Sometimes our spiritual life goes south and we are drawn into the puddle of confusion and its like God, if you said this why am i feeling this or why am i going through this? You can question God all you want to be honest, but at the end of the day He still is God. He's like the father that keeps his children's thoughts at bay before you realize the reason why years later in adulthood. Why is such an annoying question but if the answer sufficies you'd really understand.
God is not the author of confusion.
Where there's a question there's an answer. Plain and simple. Don't let people or other biases turn you away from a sound answer that God provides on His time which is on time.
"Trust in him at all times O People; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."-
Psalm 62:8
" However, as it is written: 'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him' " - 1 Corinthians 2:9
We may not understand but God knows...When God responds just says yes and amen
signing off
BRIII
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
Just like 1,2,3....
As a child i began to count on my fingers, because it was the only thing children were able to really get into without being bored at the age of 2 -3. But when i got sick it was that time where i didn't count anymore and i just wanted my mom to take care of me and heal me in any way possible.
I never really thought about it until now, but being sick humbles you and brings you to this state of mind where you just have to view everything and say to yourself:
"God if it wasn't for your grace and mercy, these feelings and emotions envoked by this sickness might appear much worse."
Sickness is something that a lot of people take for granted....yeah i said for granted. Have you ever wanted to go to some event or occasion at the last moment but in the back of your mind you knew or you just didn't want to go in the first place, then all of a sudden your sick...Hello?... You don't have to necessarily be physically sick to be "sick" but you can be mentally, spiritually or emotionally sick. These three other aspects of "sick" i've mentioned are just the litte things that evolve and intertwine with each other. Mentally sick can be a known disease or that clout the resounds in your mind as a constant reminder of either failure or what if....i hate the what ifs, because they bring so many other thoughts along with them causing an arousal of other thoughts to float about in your mind. These failures and what ifs are what tie into Emotional sickness, now that brings forth the baggage of the result of going into that murky trail of thought and then you drag yourself into spiritual sickness, meaning you feel that God can't and won't change the circumstances because your in too deep.
Define "In too Deep" in God's eyes?
In too deep is just doubts and emotions coaxing you to put God in a rock and hard place. This is the type of situation where God can take you out of, but yet you don't want get out of it just as yet yourself. So "in too deep" is that prayer you pray when you have a moment of clarity and you look up to the sky and say words of sincerity. Its funny when He removes you out that situation you're like a blind man babbling nonsense because you have yet to accept you have no physical vision...its time to open up your senses and depend on something greater that your finite characteristics. God is there, willing, open, and availible but just like 1,2,3...that situation can become a thing of the past only if and only if you let Him make it the past.
Sickness, whether temporary or till the chapters of time close, makes us see that our days and our voices are temporary, if it wasn't for His mercy or His grace i can gurantee you this world we live in today would be sheer disgust in everyones' eyes, there is but so much the human mind can take. So think of that head cold or those allergies or whatever ailment you have as a chance to seriously reflect on whatever emotions could have ran through your body if you were exposed to a even greater ailment, the destruction of the soul itself.
"Has not my hand made all these things, and so came into being? declares the Lord. 'This is the one I esteem he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." Isaiah 66:2
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:30&31
Leave it to God, because there is no depth that He can't reach to get to you.
signing off
BRIII
I never really thought about it until now, but being sick humbles you and brings you to this state of mind where you just have to view everything and say to yourself:
"God if it wasn't for your grace and mercy, these feelings and emotions envoked by this sickness might appear much worse."
Sickness is something that a lot of people take for granted....yeah i said for granted. Have you ever wanted to go to some event or occasion at the last moment but in the back of your mind you knew or you just didn't want to go in the first place, then all of a sudden your sick...Hello?... You don't have to necessarily be physically sick to be "sick" but you can be mentally, spiritually or emotionally sick. These three other aspects of "sick" i've mentioned are just the litte things that evolve and intertwine with each other. Mentally sick can be a known disease or that clout the resounds in your mind as a constant reminder of either failure or what if....i hate the what ifs, because they bring so many other thoughts along with them causing an arousal of other thoughts to float about in your mind. These failures and what ifs are what tie into Emotional sickness, now that brings forth the baggage of the result of going into that murky trail of thought and then you drag yourself into spiritual sickness, meaning you feel that God can't and won't change the circumstances because your in too deep.
Define "In too Deep" in God's eyes?
In too deep is just doubts and emotions coaxing you to put God in a rock and hard place. This is the type of situation where God can take you out of, but yet you don't want get out of it just as yet yourself. So "in too deep" is that prayer you pray when you have a moment of clarity and you look up to the sky and say words of sincerity. Its funny when He removes you out that situation you're like a blind man babbling nonsense because you have yet to accept you have no physical vision...its time to open up your senses and depend on something greater that your finite characteristics. God is there, willing, open, and availible but just like 1,2,3...that situation can become a thing of the past only if and only if you let Him make it the past.
Sickness, whether temporary or till the chapters of time close, makes us see that our days and our voices are temporary, if it wasn't for His mercy or His grace i can gurantee you this world we live in today would be sheer disgust in everyones' eyes, there is but so much the human mind can take. So think of that head cold or those allergies or whatever ailment you have as a chance to seriously reflect on whatever emotions could have ran through your body if you were exposed to a even greater ailment, the destruction of the soul itself.
"Has not my hand made all these things, and so came into being? declares the Lord. 'This is the one I esteem he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." Isaiah 66:2
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:30&31
Leave it to God, because there is no depth that He can't reach to get to you.
signing off
BRIII
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
dependent
well good morning, there is something i realized that i constantly do, depend on my ipod. now its solmething i use to get my day started but ive come to realize that i begin to ignore the surroundings and the people around me. im more secluded from the world and everything in it. i demolish all contact with the people around me. i feel bad sometimes all the conversation that could ever take place is made obsolete due to the lack of interaction. i think since my ipod disappeared, this time is to show me what im lacking as a child of God first and foremost...so my prayer is going to be simple and sweet...search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxieties...and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me into the way of everlasting. -Psalm 139.
signing off.
BRIII
signing off.
BRIII
Sunday, April 27, 2008
i will trust in you, let the weak say i am strong
a quick synopsis on the chapter of Ezekiel 37... God is speaking to Ezekiel asking him a question, can these bones live? and he replies to God only God himself can know. God commands Ezekiel to prophecy over the dry bones twice for two different aspects, for the physical and for the breath. later on in the chapter, God goes to speak of the new covenant that he will create with these people and that his sanctuary would dwell among these people.
this comes to pass, and God completes this in Matthew the twenty-seventh chapter when Jesus is on the cross and he gives up his Spirit. the curtain of the temple is torn, the tombs break open and the holy people that died were raised to life they went into the holy city and appeared to many people...the centurion and those that were with him even exclaimed that Jesus is the Son of God.
now as i read this, i am utterly happy that this connects. We were the dry bones...meaning we were dead it wasn't until God commanded that we were spoken upon, it wasn't until the flesh was built upon these very bones that we were made whole on the physical sense. David speaks in Psalm 139 in verse 15 & 16... "my frame was not hidden from you when i was made in a secret place. when i was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
now for ths spiritual sense, Jesus speaks to his disciples in John 20 verse 22..." and with that he breathed on them and said, 'Receive the Holy Spirit'."...it also is recognized in Genesis 2 verse 7..." the Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."
now these are two very important aspects of breath....life and consciousness of what life is. life for the physical in which we intake and conscious for recognition that God is among us and within us. a friend told me that the Holy Spirit is a person...i believe he is a person that embodies us and lets us know that the flesh is weak and that this flesh is a temple in which we must hold steadfast to God, for his strength makes us perfect through weakness.
we were the dry bones and we were provided flesh and lastly provided the breath....but what really seals us is the blood. God spoke to Ezekiel and asked him the question: Son of man can these bones live? Yes they can but not by bread alone...but by the blood of Jesus. Revelation 1 verse 5b..."to him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood."
it wasn't until God spoke upon us that we are made whole in all aspects: spirit & physical making ourselves one with God and His will.
i Praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made...
signing off
BRIII
this comes to pass, and God completes this in Matthew the twenty-seventh chapter when Jesus is on the cross and he gives up his Spirit. the curtain of the temple is torn, the tombs break open and the holy people that died were raised to life they went into the holy city and appeared to many people...the centurion and those that were with him even exclaimed that Jesus is the Son of God.
now as i read this, i am utterly happy that this connects. We were the dry bones...meaning we were dead it wasn't until God commanded that we were spoken upon, it wasn't until the flesh was built upon these very bones that we were made whole on the physical sense. David speaks in Psalm 139 in verse 15 & 16... "my frame was not hidden from you when i was made in a secret place. when i was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
now for ths spiritual sense, Jesus speaks to his disciples in John 20 verse 22..." and with that he breathed on them and said, 'Receive the Holy Spirit'."...it also is recognized in Genesis 2 verse 7..." the Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."
now these are two very important aspects of breath....life and consciousness of what life is. life for the physical in which we intake and conscious for recognition that God is among us and within us. a friend told me that the Holy Spirit is a person...i believe he is a person that embodies us and lets us know that the flesh is weak and that this flesh is a temple in which we must hold steadfast to God, for his strength makes us perfect through weakness.
we were the dry bones and we were provided flesh and lastly provided the breath....but what really seals us is the blood. God spoke to Ezekiel and asked him the question: Son of man can these bones live? Yes they can but not by bread alone...but by the blood of Jesus. Revelation 1 verse 5b..."to him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood."
it wasn't until God spoke upon us that we are made whole in all aspects: spirit & physical making ourselves one with God and His will.
i Praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made...
signing off
BRIII
Friday, April 25, 2008
Can't Sleep so i'll write...
I realize that everything we've ever been taught in life has reinforced the thoughts, values and morals that make us who we are. I was on myspace, and this woman who is four years older then me, i just clicked unto her page to view what she was like. Some people have a tendency to do that to other people's pages to see if they are able to either become friend with that person or just to see what they put out there. Well as i was viewing her page i saw that she was a party girl and i don't knock her for doing as she pleases she's a woman and she can do whatever makes her happy, but as i started scrolling down the page i read her status and it said proud parent. So i went into her photo album to see what she was all about and as i viewed her photos all i could see was this woman or rather girl, because there is a way to carry yourself as a woman, she was practically getting sexed on the dancefloor, drinking liquor like a dude and just taking pictures with her pregnant stomach at these parties as if that was the life to live and the thing to do. Like i said before i don't knock anyone's lifestyle but its like your supposed to be a mother mind you this is what you portray to your social circle and this is who you are as far as any man concerns an easy lay. This is who this woman is, as far as the internet is concerned but its like you have a child and this is who you are? So when a man comes up to her one day and just approaches her due to the image that she has put out there and responds to the actions portrayed by her "motherly character" what can she say then?
Van Hunt said it best "Where is your character?"
I'm only 20 years of age and there are just somethings i won't put on the internet or won't put out there due to the fact that one, its my personal life is at stake and two, i know better not to put something outrageous out in the open to be questioned about. Not to say that im innocent but i know my limitations and my boundaries. My morals and values call me to act better hence the term common sense. There are times when i know better but this is just blatant disrespect of self. Worst case scenario: if i were pregnant and that were me, I have wayyyyyyy more at stake now, i have my life, my child's life, the father of the child's life, the family's life, my education, my position as far as financial needs are concerned, my reputation of self would definitely have to change. I couldn't live knowing that my mother or my father we're taking care of a responsibility that was mine to begin with, when i took the chance in committing myself in the act of sex with someone knowing the full on consequences of this played out scenario.
Like i said there is way to carry yourself as a woman but it all depends what you define as womanhood.
Society supports this behavior in which a person should act reckless and enjoy their youth until they fall into a mistake and this is when they must collect themselves and this is the time in which they should be ridiculed for their behavior, this is the time in which society must point the finger of shame. Why??? It makes nooo sense. What happened to the instruction in which a person needs to survive, what happened to the principle and standards in which a child should be given ahead of time so that if they do fall into this sort of mistake they have full on knowledge knowing they've done wrong and can gradually bounce back into common sense. It seems unfair but hey when society is offering the glitz and glams of what life should be like, its like hey i want that too and i want to do that too. It seems so innocent at first but then you get wrapped up into it and then before you know it your in that position, the point of no return and with that lack of knowledge you really don't know how to bounce back and you really don't know what to do except move with the wave of the crowd.
In the book of Proverbs in the third chapter it says:
My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight;
In the book of Eccleciastes in the fouth chapter it says:
Better a poor but wise youth than an old but foolish king who no longer knows how to take warning.
and lastly one again in the book of Proverbs the sixth chapter it says:
For these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life,
Take that into consideration what image you put out there regardless if its the internet or whatever or wherever you are. First impressions are the lasting ones.
Signing off..
BRIII
Van Hunt said it best "Where is your character?"
I'm only 20 years of age and there are just somethings i won't put on the internet or won't put out there due to the fact that one, its my personal life is at stake and two, i know better not to put something outrageous out in the open to be questioned about. Not to say that im innocent but i know my limitations and my boundaries. My morals and values call me to act better hence the term common sense. There are times when i know better but this is just blatant disrespect of self. Worst case scenario: if i were pregnant and that were me, I have wayyyyyyy more at stake now, i have my life, my child's life, the father of the child's life, the family's life, my education, my position as far as financial needs are concerned, my reputation of self would definitely have to change. I couldn't live knowing that my mother or my father we're taking care of a responsibility that was mine to begin with, when i took the chance in committing myself in the act of sex with someone knowing the full on consequences of this played out scenario.
Like i said there is way to carry yourself as a woman but it all depends what you define as womanhood.
Society supports this behavior in which a person should act reckless and enjoy their youth until they fall into a mistake and this is when they must collect themselves and this is the time in which they should be ridiculed for their behavior, this is the time in which society must point the finger of shame. Why??? It makes nooo sense. What happened to the instruction in which a person needs to survive, what happened to the principle and standards in which a child should be given ahead of time so that if they do fall into this sort of mistake they have full on knowledge knowing they've done wrong and can gradually bounce back into common sense. It seems unfair but hey when society is offering the glitz and glams of what life should be like, its like hey i want that too and i want to do that too. It seems so innocent at first but then you get wrapped up into it and then before you know it your in that position, the point of no return and with that lack of knowledge you really don't know how to bounce back and you really don't know what to do except move with the wave of the crowd.
In the book of Proverbs in the third chapter it says:
My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight;
In the book of Eccleciastes in the fouth chapter it says:
Better a poor but wise youth than an old but foolish king who no longer knows how to take warning.
and lastly one again in the book of Proverbs the sixth chapter it says:
For these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life,
Take that into consideration what image you put out there regardless if its the internet or whatever or wherever you are. First impressions are the lasting ones.
Signing off..
BRIII
Monday, April 21, 2008
soul searching
my soul thirsts for the living God. my lips quench the taste of fulfilling water that flows through the compassionate arms of Jesus. he cries and the tears that flow with salt tell of the tale before the cross. he laughs and i hear the resounding praises of the angels. he looks and i can feel the sword of judgement divide my soul from my spirit, my flesh from my bones. he is silent and i can feel death touch my soul when he doesn't utter a word to me. he speaks and i feel the Holy Spirit consume my flesh allowing me to feel euphoria and the firmness of my feet in his courts. he speaks and i hear the choice being given without harshness, but the decision is beyond my common sense. he listens to my case when i plead guilty of sin and temptation. he loves those that love him and hates those that hate him. he is the way the truth and the life. he is life. he is love. he is judgement. he is peace. he is happiness. he is fulfillment. he is the morning. he is the evening. he is the divine trium God. HE IS THE I AM THAT I AM. but yet my soul thirsts. Lord please let me drink. amen.
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